I previously posted excerpts from this section. But today I feel led to go back and post the whole writing, in three sections, as it appears in the book, Intimate Meditations, that is still yet to be published.
Illumination & LOVE
Praise & Thanks
I speak out with the illumination of Love. I praise the Creator who first spoke, “Let there be light.” And there was light. Let that light so shine as to conquer the dark. Yet, when I am found in darkness let me remember that the dark is the best place to shine.
Within the light, let me unravel a rainbow of colors and character traits that are precious and mysterious to the soul’s eye. Let my life radiate the glory of unconditional and unearned grace in every facet that it may be found, both seen and unseen.
Let the words of my life be the prism that both expands all goodness and focuses with intense healing upon that which needs the light.
Let the light of truth and mercy prevail in all things. For if it be that I have the ability to understand, expound, and partake of all Truth, even unto things that are beyond simple human conception, but still I have no love nor mercy found in the spectrum of my light, then this light is faded and deceptive and worthy of being shut off.
For it is on the beams of mercy and compassion that my life perpetuates Love. It is love that illuminates Truth. It is truth that must magnify Love.
Let the example of my life be a lighthouse upon a hill that shows the way of mercy through the rocks of truth that none be found wrecked or damaged by such harshness, but that all might find their way safely- to Love, through Love, and in Love.
And let me acknowledge and embrace the changing light in all her seasons. For we cannot appreciate the light lest it first be taken from us in darkness, nor can we comprehend the defeat of darkness without first seeing the miracle of illumination. Yet be this so with the cycle of light in my life, be it nightfall, winter, midday, or springtime, in all things, let my Love never fail.
Let my light so shine that the world may know the illumination of Love eternal.
Make it so to be in me.
Let my confessions of play in the darkness be brought out into the light, not for torment or torture or even right punishment, but that all the evil that hangs itself upon me might be revealed and routed out. Be that evil there by means of abuse as victim, by means of acceptance or absorption of my environment, or by my own designs; let that evil come forth and be found in the light of truth.
I submit to the Light the selfish justifications of my own desires. The times when, in this life, I secretly pursue my own way for my own purposes, putting myself forward to the detriment and deception of others.
I accept responsibility for those hurtful actions and behaviors that I have taken part in. Whether or not I was being true to myself matters little when another’s innocence has suffered by my intent. I am grieved by the pain that I have generated in the people whom I have hurt. I turn away from such things and seek to live well in the light with my fellow humanity.
I confess that I am my own worst judge and it is by my own condemnation of myself that I trigger guilt, disgust, and anger within. I confess that when I shine the light upon my own soul, that I find fault first, before anyone else, as I am my own worst enemy.
I submit to the light of revelation for self-analysis, not self-exposure, lest another well intended, but misunderstanding heart be cruel to me. But I will shine upon my own motivations and intents, a sharp and clear light that I might know my own heart.
For when I do know my own heart, I see its frailty and its deception. And while instinct will often protect me from harsher sources without, yet I accept that this same protection is loyal only to my self-interest, and I must therefore take charge of it.
I determine to live in a manner that will shine with mercy and compassion on the lives of those around me. I will not live in the darkness of selfish denial. I will accept the responsibility that I am who I am, I am where I am, and I can make better where I will be.
I will use the light to seek out my own unique pattern and pathways that will lead me to selfless love and abundant grace and compassion in my daily living.
I will learn to love me. I will purpose to love others. I will shine.
The words, “Let there be light” echo through Time and I AM sees them as Good. Therefore Elohim declares, “Let there be light” in your life. In and through, for and to you, all light be shone. For it is in you that the reception of love is made complete.
There is no beauty in the light to be seen, lest there be eyes to see it. Surely the beauty of the rainbow exists with or without a vision to behold it, yet where is the joy in that?
I, the Creator Elohim, have created you to be the crowning joy of My glory. I spoke into existence the light that you might see and I might delight in seeing you. I look to you. I look to love you. I look to shine on you, in you, through you, and about you. I look to you to shine My brilliant reflection back to me. I AM loving the beautiful light in you.
As the moon reflects her pure white glow on the darkest of nights, hidden only by vapors on the wind, so you shall reflect the perfection of My love in you, if you will but let Me shine upon you.
There is no prejudice in the light. All are welcome, into the light when you step forth, without partiality or condemnation. For My grace is greater than any darkness that might hang about you.
Anyone may step into the light. I call you. I ask you. I seek you to come into My light that I might show you how you may heal the dark wounds of your soul.
Come into the light, but know that when you step into the light you will be seen. None can hide in the light and the light reveals all darkness, but it defeats all darkness and the darkness cannot dwell in the light.
I plead My grace over you. I plead My healing over you. I declare, “let there be Light in you,” and it is. You are My reflection. You are My light and I love you.
Let Me love you.
Won’t you step closer, come closer to the light that I may love you and love you more than you could ever comprehend. For all comprehension comes only with revelation and revelation comes with the Light.
I have revealed Myself to you. Come, now, and let Me reveal My love completely within you so you and I may dwell together in the completion of love for mercies sake.
Amen & AMEN.